Bleh… L O V E

Reading my title you might think my sentiments on love are cynical, and honestly, you might me semi right. However, if you know me you know that I’m a lover of love. Never having ever been in love personally, I don’t really know what it’s like. I have ideas of what it’s like from Disney, romantic comedies, books I’ve read, and the list goes on. Yet, at the ripe age of 24, I’ve never actually been in love myself. I have probably loved guys, but the feeling wasn’t mutual. Yes, they probably cared, but like, in a, “if you were gonna die I would be there for you.”

I really don’t know where this post is going. I’m actually am just sitting here with my dog and cat watching one of my all-time favorite romantic comedies, “One Small Hitch,” and if you haven’t seen it, you need to go to Netflix RIGHT NOW and go watch it! It’s definitely one of those movies that didn’t make it to theaters or have any A-list actors or actresses in it, but it’s a fabulous movie! So, I don’t know if it’s the movie, the fact that my mom thinks I’m not going to find a guy, or that everyone I know is getting hitched or more accurately having a baby, but here I am reflecting on the sentiment of love, and quite honestly I kind of find it like bleh right now. Why is that you might ask?

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Well, dear friends, one of those reasons is because I am a lover of love. I have loved it for as long as I can remember. You know that feeling you get every time you see Cinderella and the Prince reunite after the long search? Or, when Mr. Darcy is walking through that foggy field in the early morning to go tell Elizabeth how he really feels? That’s how I feel about love, but it’s not just that. It’s the fact that they went through so much together to get to that point. To that beautiful moment when they both realize that they are going to spend the rest of their lives together. The ending is not really the ending, but the beginning of a wonderful journey.

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However, that world doesn’t really exist now, or really anymore. What’s left now is Tinder, Bumble, Hinge, Coffee Meets Bagel, etc., you choose your poison. If you don’t know what I mean, Google dating apps and you will see. Yes, there are some happy couples out there that have benefitted from these apps, but I wonder how many of them come from big cities and how many come from small towns. Cause I would like to know that study.

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From my personal research, the pickings are slim. That’s not to say there aren’t great guys in the small town scene, but they are slim and they usually already have their pick. And, if you live in a small, southern town their picking is their high school sweetheart, a country gal, or a beauty queen. Yes, this is a stereotypical generalization of men in a small town, but until I see differently, the generalization still stands. Granted these girls could be the nicest on the planet cause of some of them are my greatest friends, but when you don’t look like ANY of these types you’re kind of at a loss when it comes to men. If I’m wrong, somebody please tell me, cause I would LOVE to be wrong.

Love just hasn’t been my strong points in life. I’ve been on dates and just haven’t felt that connection. One of these days I’ll be living in a bigger town. I wonder if Carrie Bradshaw lived in a small town what she would do. Cause goodness knows she lived in NYC, and had a much better chance at meeting men that weren’t married or already in a committed relationship. Anyways, if anything changes in my current love life I’ll probably have a different outlook on all this. Till then, I’ll be in a whirlwind of my love/hate relationship with love.

Till next time sweeties, XOXO


That one guy…

So maybe this is just the bottle of wine that I have just consumed or the fact that Sex and the City has inspired me to write this post. Either way, I figured it was time I explored the area of “that on e guy.” We all have experienced them. “That one guy who…” you fill in the blank. That one guy that opened your mind to experience the world. That one guy that made you feel worth something. That one guy that blah, blah, blah…

Whatever it is, we have all had that one guy that we just want to punch in the balls, wish we never met or whatever it is. Trust me, each girl has been there. I’m sorry that this is not so much an inspiring post as it should be. More or less this is me wanting to get off a years worth of frustration and basically get out what I’ve been wanting to say for the past couple of months.

So here it is, my “that one guy…” A little background if you will. He was someone that I was instantly attracted to when I first met him at church camp. His family was singing at our talent night and I thought he was one of the cutest guys at camp. Then I found out he was the younger brother, and I figured that just wouldn’t work since he was younger than me. (Stupid me lol) Anyways, as years went on we just became friends. We ran in the same circle and what not. He dated different people as I continued to focus on school and my career. I never really EVER considered him as someone that I could potentially fall for. Heck! He was my friend’s little brother.

It didn’t happen till we were at the same college at the same time. As the school year started, I kept on trying to set him up with different people. We laughed, hung out together, and had the best of time. I mean, I basically used all of his cafeteria money to eat that year. Sad, I know, but that was what happened. It wasn’t till that summer that I realized why I hated every time he said he was excited for a formal date with a social club I couldn’t stand. It was because I was starting to fall for him. On top of that, it wasn’t till he left the country for a mission trip that I started to notice how attractive he was. How the little things he said or sent meant a lot to me. (Let me tell ya, I didn’t expect this) That summer feelings started to form and I didn’t know what to do.

It wasn’t till I started my MBA that I tried to show how much I liked him. That eventually failed and I had other guys to distract me from my feelings. Honestly, THANK GOODNESS. However, that then led to another summer. The summer before it was just movies and hanging out. However, this particular summer I was going to show him that I liked him. Little did I know, he wasn’t just “nice” to one girl. Anyways, that summer was innocent enough with a few miscommunications here and there. Sadly, at the end friendship went from uncomplicated to complicated.

One night and everything, and I mean EVERYTHING COMPLETELY CHANGED! We went from fun loving and laughing friends, to friends who can’t talk without things being weird. We kissed and our whole friendship went *CAPOOT!* For a year, now, we had been going in this circle of weirdness. Why is it that when friends cross the lines they can’t just make things normal? Isn’t that just one question, even relationship experts can’t answer.

I mean this guy and I have been or gone through so much, but his family doesn’t know and neither do mine. I’m sure if either of our families knew, it would be a nuclear bomb. If you have ever seen, “My Best Friend’s Wedding,” well then you have seen my life.

Let’s Talk Red Cups and Starbucks

As you all have probably heard today, there are a lot of people upset with Starbucks. Now let’s be real, how many times a day do you think Starbucks hears complaints? A lot is my guess. However, this complaint has gone viral, and unless you live under a rock then you already know what I’m talking about.

So for those of you who do live under a rock, I am talking about Starbucks’ new holiday cup. You know their famous red cups that for some ring in the holiday season. Instead of coming up with a festive design, Starbucks went extremely simple and came out with a red cup with their logo. You might be scratching your head at why this is such an upset. Well for some Christians this was a stand against Christianity. As a Christian here are my two cents (well maybe more than that) about those red cups.

To begin with, I’m a Christian and whether Starbucks decides to put a Christmas theme on their cups or not is not why I celebrate this festive season or the meaning behind it. Now if they start throwing hateful messages on the cups against Christians, then my attitude might change, but they are not going to be the ones to ruin my Christmas spirit because they decide to go with a plain red cup. To be honest, I hardly noticed at all. I was just excited the pretty red cups were out to ring in the festive season!

Second, instead of looking at it as a war against Christian, why not look at the plain red cup as something pure. Think about it, what color was Jesus’ blood when He bled on the cross? It certainly wasn’t blue! It was red, and what does that blood do for our sins? It cleanses us. So in a way Starbucks has supported the Christian thought in that they used a pure red cup, pure from anything except for their logo. Hebrews 13:12 states “And so Jesus also suffered outside the city gate to make the people holy through his own blood.” 1 John 1:7 also states “But if we walk in the light, as He is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, His Son, purifies us from all sin.” As you can see, the color red can symbolize the pure blood of Jesus that cleanses us of our sins.

Thirdly, if you are basing your Christianity and Christmas spirit from a red cup, then you need to seriously reevaluate your Christian walk and why would you let some company steal away your Christmas spirit? There’s something my mom always asks me when my attitude is in the wrong. She always asks me, “Why are you letting them control you?” So I ask those of you who are upset, why are you letting them control you and take away your Christmas spirit? Do you really think it bothers them? No, cause they are still going to continue to make coffee and sell coffee.

Lastly, I understand that Starbucks has had a lot of backlash from Christians before. Trust me there was many times that I almost boycotted one of my favorite coffee shops. Not because of the prices, but because there are some of their beliefs that I don’t agree with. That being said, I did get a chance to talk to someone who is a Christian working for the company while I was in college. I asked him what thought about Starbucks’ stance on some issues that disagree with the Christian belief and how he handles working for a company that goes against his beliefs, and what he said has stayed with me. He told me that even though their beliefs are not his own, there is so much good that Starbucks does that outweighs the bad. For example, they help those in developing countries obtain jobs.

So my challenge for you, and in the spirit of Christmas is to look on the bright side. Look for the good in this. See how the red cups can be a symbol for Jesus’ blood that cleanses. Research the good causes that Starbucks supports. Instead of focusing on the bad, focus on the good, because even Jesus ate with tax collectors, prostitutes, and those that the religious leaders deemed evil.

The 3-Day Military Diet: My increasing hunger and thankfulness

For the last couple of weeks one of my best friends started what is known as the 3-day military diet. It’s diet that has you eat certain foods to lower your calorie intake while at the same time boosting your metabolism. Anyways, on week one she was able to lose up to six pounds and when she was on her four days off she only gained back one. Since we are going to the beach in June with some more friends, I figured I better try and work to get that bikini body.

So, I started the military diet yesterday. For breakfast, I was only allowed to eat one piece of toast with some peanut butter on it, a half of a grapefruit (that I suffered through eating), and a cup of coffee with no creamer only stevia (sadly). By the time lunch rolled around, I had already drank two liters of water which is unusual for me since I LOVE to snack. Yet, with this diet I can and so now I’m drinking water as if the entire world is about to dry up soon. That is to say by the time lunch came I was super ready to eat. So for lunch I had a half cup of tuna, a piece of toast (no peanut butter this time), and a cup of coffee with stevia. Let me just say that I am so happy I can have my cup of coffee! After lunch, I was feeling a bit better. However, I workout quite a bit. Exercising has never been my problem. It’s my love for food and trying new foods, and somewhat overloading on food when I finish a workout. Cause you know I worked for it. Anyways, when I had finished my two Jazzercise classes (which is a great place to workout and you should try it if you get the chance!) I had to go play volleyball. By the time we had finished our second volleyball game I needed food, like stat! So I went to a close gas station and found the banana that I was allowed to eat, but only half of it. When I finally got home I was able to eat my supper which consisted of a small apple, a cup of ice cream, a cup of green beans and three ounces of meat. Needless to say, I was too tired and hungry to do much else that night.

All through that one day, I have realized how blessed I am to even be eating these low calorie diets. If you think about it, when people who live in developed countries go on diets and complain about not being able to eat, there are others who live in the world who really can’t eat anything else. They don’t have the option to go on a diet to try and lose weight. They are truly suffering from hunger. So, as I continue on to day two and thank the Lord for the piece of toast, boiled egg, and half a banana that I had for breakfast, and the five saltine crackers, boiled egg and cup of cottage cheese that I will be able to eat for lunch. Thinking of this diet from a different perspective makes it less horrible, and I’ve also lost weight from it, so YAY!

As I encounter day two of this three day diet, I hope that I can still put a smile on my face and realize my hunger is not as bad as others around the world and even in America.