Dreams Almost Come True…

***FYI if you haven’t seen One Tree Hill and it’s on your watchlist, don’t read this cause it has a spoiler in it! It’s a great show and I love it, so if you haven’t seen it you should!***

So here I am watching One Tree Hill on Netflix and it’s the episode where *SPOILER ALERT* Peyton and Lucas get married. During the wedding, best friend Haley pulls out Lucas’ resolution list from when he was in the eighth grade. On that list, it said that Peyton Sawyer would become Peyton Scott. Haley then continues to tell those in the audience that they are witnessing a dream come true. I couldn’t help but tear up during that moment. Partly because it was a beautiful moment and partly because I wish I could have something like that happen in my life.

How many of us have gone through life dreaming of being with the person we love, but because “life happens” we miss out on the opportunity or they end up loving someone else?

Twice in my life have I had a guy that I really loved/liked and I wish I had said something to them before they got married. I cried when I heard they were engaged, but then when the wedding ceremony was over I realized I really didn’t love them as much as the woman who was marrying them. I realized that those guys were really more like friends to me. One even feels more like a brother, and I don’t know what I would do without him and his wife in my life. They are truly a blessing.

But there are a couple of times where I have kept in my heart the love I had for a guy. Once I have told him, and one I still keep in my heart. These two men are the ones where one I lost a friendship and one where I would never tell him how I feel for fear of what would happen. I don’t know why it is that there are times when we can never be truly honest with the people we should be safe to be honest with. One of these men has changed so much that he’s not the person I knew and the other I feel like only talks to me when he needs me to help him with something. However, these men will always be a part of my life that I will have learned from. I look to the future and am anxious to see who the man I am meant to be with will show up, because I know that he has to be an amazing person.

To you lost hearts this is what I have to say to you, if you really want to know if he or she loves you then you will have to prepare for the best or the worst. I have told someone how I felt and it didn’t go so well, but that doesn’t always happened.

What I can tell you is that you are still awesome! I can tell you that there is someone out there for you. I can tell you not to give up. I can tell you that if all you seem to think about is that other person, find a hobby, or get lost in your job. Don’t sit around feeling sorry for yourself. If you do then you will wallow in your heartache and it will do more harm to you then it will to them. If they are a part your social media circle, unfollow them so that can move on. Once you have moved on you could probably reconnect. Till then, focus on being a better you.

Life’s too short to pine over someone. Be patient and wait for that head over heels love. Don’t settle for humdrum, so-so love. It’s not worth it.  That is why I say dreams almost come true. Sometimes the dream that we have for ourselves is not as wonderful as the dream that will come true!


Just Friends

If you follow Charlie Puth on social media, you will see that on his SnapChat story that he has been rumored to be dating many people. Singers like Selena Gomez, Meghan Trainor, and many different other famous names. The thing is that on his SnapChat he let the whole world know that he was totally single and that he was just friends with whoever the next rumored has it girl it was. He then followed up with the question of, “Can’t people be just friends?” I couldn’t agree with him more! (Sidenote: I wouldn’t mind however being more than just friends with Charlie. I mean have you heard him sing, and not to mention he’s attractive, funny, interesting, etc. Sorry to be fangirling. Back on topic.)

How many times have you been asked by people, “Are you two dating?”, “Are y’all an item?”, or “Would you ever consider dating him/her?”? I can tell you that when I had a guy friend that wasn’t in a relationship, married or talking to someone, this would be the question or questions I would hear so often. The questions seem to increase the more you are seen with him or as you start to get further into your 20s, and the only answer you can give these inquiring minds is, “We are JUST friends.”

But anyone who has seen When Harry Met Sally would tell you that guys and girls cannot stay just friends. Someone usually messes that dynamic up. Granted, this is true and honestly I never really believed that till just recently. However, I still believe in the fact that guys and girls can remain friends platonically.

To the significant other…
It can be tough especially if one starts dating. The whole duo can become complicated because the significant other may feel threaten.Can I just speak on behalf of those of us who are part of the “just friends” community? Significant others, if I really wanted to make a move on your boyfriend, fiance or whatever, I would have. So don’t worry, and honestly we just want to be your friend too. So just get to know the “just friend” and give them a chance. I say this because also just recently I thought that one of my guy friend’s girlfriend, now wife, hated me. However, there was a night that I was at his parents’ house and we hung out and it was awesome! Now his wife and I are on good terms and I seriously couldn’t imagine him with anyone else.

So to you significant others, if you are worried about your man or woman leaving you for their best friend, first get to know the friend, be more secure in your relationship, and if he/she has never made a move then chill! Honestly, if they haven’t pulled a My Best Friend’s Wedding move on you just yet then be friends with the friend.

To those who don’t believe in “just friends”…
Y’all men and women can be just friends. Sure it takes some work just like any other relationship, but it can happen. There are many guys who I have remained just friends with for a long time. Did I ever develop feelings for some of my guy friends? Sure, but then again they are my guy friends, I know the reality and I wouldn’t want to ruin the friendship. It can really happen.

To those who want more than to be “just friends”…
Let me tell you that it’s hard to go from being friends to being more than friends. I have seen it done, but then again I have gone through where it doesn’t. Each situation is different. Just be careful with your feelings, and if you feel like you need to pursue it, then be wary of rejection and make sure that you two talk it out. Most important of all, be open to STAYING FRIENDS! Whether that means going beyond friendship or staying friends.

All in all each situation is different. I have always dreamed of falling in love with my best guy friend. I’ve never thought of meeting someone randomly and falling for them. I’ve always have wanted to be friends first and then fall in love. However, that doesn’t always happen and I’m excited to see who my future husband is.

For the Right Reasons: A Book that You Should Read

I don’t know about you, but I LOVE watching The Bachelor or The Bachelorette. It could be that I’m a romantic at heart and I just love, Love. It could also be the fact that I come from a small town, and NOTHING ever happens here, and so to find drama in my life I watch this show. Sounds sad? I know! It could also be that my own love life is in the pits right now and so I watch it to take notes on “what-not-to-do”, how not to be that “crazy girl” or take notes on how to flirt. Whatever my reasoning is, I just really like watching the show. However, this post is not about the show essentially, rather it is about a bachelor who was on the show and then wrote a book.

If you remember the contestant Sean Lowe than you already know what kind of a guy he is and what he stands for. I, however before reading his book, knew nothing about him. I actually didn’t get a chance to watch his season. I don’t know what happened I just didn’t watch it. Anyways, I heard about him and his wife Catherine, and started to follow them on Instagram and Twitter, and I absolutely admired their relationship! They are my what you would call #relationshipgoals.

Sean in his book describes how he was in a rough part of his life when he finally prayed every day for something more to happen to him. It was then that his brother in-law and sister secretly signed him up for the Bachelor. It was there that his, as the show would say, journey began. He went on to be a contestant, lost and then was The Bachelor. What was truly inspiring about his story was that he relied on making decision in love based on biblical terms and the advice of his friends and family.

As a Christian woman who is seeking love in a world that seems to be lost, I think that is what inspired me about Sean and his relationship with Catherine. He prayed that God would send him a woman who would push him as a Christian and who he could live life together with. God did just that. Maybe for us “normals” it won’t happen on a TV show, but it will happen.

Many of us who feel like love has skipped over them forget that God has a perfect plan for our lives. The word that has been constantly said to me these past few months with all my friends getting married is patience. We have to be patient and just enjoy life.

In Song of Songs 8:6-7 it says, “Place me like a seal over your heart, like a seal on your arm; for love is as strong as death, its jealousy unyielding as the grave. It burns like blazing fire, like a mighty flame. Many waters cannot quench love; rivers cannot sweep it away. If one were to give all the wealth of one’s house for love it would be utterly scorned.” We need to have a love for someone that cannot be blown out like a small flame. We want a “blazing fire,” and that big of a fire doesn’t come from rushing love. It comes from taking things slow and continuously building that fire so that it is something that is all consuming.

Sean and Catherine from what I can tell have this kind of love. From reading his book, I can tell that Sean stands strong in his faith. Of course, he hasn’t been the best Christian all his life and he knows that. There’s a part of his book in which he talks about this. He has fallen, but he has also gotten back up. That is what is truly amazing about this book. It’s a story about sin, redemption, falling in love, and finding love in God. If you ever have time be sure to read this book! It’s a great book to encourage you on your walk in faith and finding true love.

Never the Bride: Becoming an all too reality for me

Several years ago, I bought a book at Barnes and Noble called Never the Bride. As a hopeless romantic Christian who has never had any real success in the dating realm, this book seemed to call to me. It was the kind of book that you had interest in, but didn’t know what kind of an impact it would make on your life till later. You see, I have always loved reading, and as a teenager (when I bought the book) who’s friends seem to thrive in dating it seemed that I would end up as the friend that was “three times a bridesmaid, never a bride.” So I decided to buy this book because I hoped it would help.

There were so many things about Jessie Stone, the main character, that I could relate to in this book: she wasn’t a fan of people with certain hair color (read the book to see what I mean), loved love, loved chocolate, had a younger sister to look out for, could be a little crazy at time, planned the perfect everything for her life, and really wanted to find love.

As I said before, much like Jessie, I have always loved love. I know that might sound weird, but I have. I even love Valentine’s Day. It could be that my mom and dad have always made it special even when there is never a special guy to be present. But I love love stories, I love watching weddings, and I love helping other people find love. It is just something that is beautiful to witness. Sadly, I have never once been in love. Like real love. Sure, I have had a ton of crushes, but I have never fell in love. Still haven’t. There are days like Jessie Stone that I feel like God has given up on me, but I have to remind myself that the time may not just be right.

That’s not the only connection I have with Jessie. You see throughout the book, Jessie tries to convince God that she has found her perfect guy. That God doesn’t need to keep looking. Jessie knows who is right for her. With each guy she can see it working out. Especially, when it comes to her best guy friend Blake. You see, I have had my share of best guy friends. Still do, and I know that there are days where I look to heaven and say, “God don’t you see how great of a match we would make?” Yet, nothing happens and I don’t know what to think. If I hadn’t read this book I wouldn’t have seen that maybe my best guy friends aren’t the best match for me and that there is someone out there that God has perfectly molded for me.

Jessie Stone goes through a great journey to find love. She had to learn to fall in love with God first before falling in love with her Mr. Right. I believe that’s where we all are at some point in our life. We must first fall for God, before He gives us our Mr. or Mrs. Right. That doesn’t mean that we have to sit back and let God do all the work. No. That’s not what I’m saying, but we need to trust that His will is best. I believe that God will nudge us in the direction we need to go.

Now that I am older, and have reread this book (which is the only book I have ever reread besides the Bible) it speaks more to my situation than ever before. Especially since the last time I read it I was a teenager who really didn’t need to find love anyways. As someone who has been single for the majority of her life I can honestly say there are some tough days. It would be nice to have God come down in human form and actually point to the one I’m supposed to spend the rest of my life with or if He would write on the wall or place in neon lights the name of the man who I’m supposed to marry, but that will never happen. Instead, I’m just going to have to trust in Him and know that He is the best romance novelist there is. It has been my constant reminder that God is in charge of writing our love story, and He does not need our help.  Like Jessie, instead of trying to plan my perfect romantic story, I help my friends with their weddings, engagements, and dates. Thanks to this book that idea of helping others plan their big day has really helped! Sure, I do envy them sometimes I know that my time is coming. It may not be tomorrow, next week, next month, or even next year, but that’s okay! I’m loving my life and living it to the fullest, and besides I’m only 22! I haven’t hit 35, yet like Jessie, but who knows you may see a blog years from now where I have become a single 35 year old still looking for her Mr. Right! (but let’s not hope that lol)

So if you need a good read this summer, go pick this book up! My copy is already starting to wear out with its faded pages and a few coffee stains, but I absolutely love it! Thank you Cheryl McKay and Rene Gutteridge for writing this book! It has truly been a constant reminder that I don’t always have the best love story thought up for myself.

My copy of Never the Bride by Cheryl McKay and Rene Gutteridge


My copy of Never the Bride by Cheryl McKay and Rene Gutteridge


The Cake of Love

Engagements. It feels like when you are in your 20’s, almost every time you log onto Facebook, someone on your timeline is engaged. The “in a relationship” is seems to be the runner-up in statuses that pop up on Facebook among your friends. As a single person it can make you feel like you are doing something wrong with your life, missing out on something great or there may be something wrong with you as a person.

Recently, a friend of mine had just gotten out of a long term relationship. Being the consistent single friend in my group, she asked, “What do single people do?” At first my reaction was, “Really? You’re going to ask me that?” Then I realized that some people think that being single is the worst thing that could happen to a person, or maybe it’s that some have been in relationships for so long that they forget the freedom of being single. Now don’t get me wrong, I look forward to the day when I will meet my Mr. Right, but until then I want to enjoy my singleness. Consider for a bit some of the things singles can enjoy that couples can’t. I’m going to list three that basically encompasses a HUGE chunk of sinlgeness:
1. We can do things spontaneously without having to consider whether a significant other wants to go or if they need to know where we’re at. i.e. the movies, a weekend trip, unplanned hang outs, not making plans, free weekends, etc. I know that some of my girl friends are not able to do this because they have to plan their week out depending on their dates with their boyfriends/fiance.
2. Spending as much money as we want. I understand that you can’t go too crazy, simply because we would be broke! But consider the fact that if you love those fashion shoes in the store, and you can buy them because you don’t have to worry about saving money for a wedding. You can also get the $20 steak if you like! When you are single you have the time to spoil yourself a bit
3. Hanging out with the opposite sex as “just friends”. I have come through many obstacles lately with my guy friends who are in relationships because their girlfriends freak out when we hang out one-on-one. I’m not the type to make a move on a guy and so it hurts when someone who you are close to starts distancing themselves. When you are single you can hang out with other singles without fear of losing them as friends because they are not in relationships.

The list can can go on and on, and sure there are days when you feel like you’re the only one who can’t find someone and this list seems lonely and boring. Trust me I’ve been there. Let me tell you right now God has someone special for you and there is NOTHING wrong with you.

In the Bible, there is a chapter known as the love chapter. It is in 2 Corinthians. Now this chapter is for everyone in any situation single or in a relationship. Today I want to look a few verses from that chapter. One in particular right now is 2 Corinthians 13:7, “Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.”

If you are single and struggling with thinking that the perfect guy/girl doesn’t exist. Just remember he or she DOES! Don’t sell yourself short. Don’t chase after a guy or girl just because everyone else has someone. If you do you will be missing out on a love that “bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.” There is someone out there for you. Just because you may be ready for them God knows that they may not be ready for you.

That special someone could be going through a rough patch in their life, and God knows that if you were to meet him or her you may not like them. God is the Master Matchmaker and he can cook up the best love that there is.

Let’s look at this two layered cake of love. First you will need the right ingredients. Those ingredients can be found in the love chapter of 2 Corinthians 13:4-13. These two layers are you and your future love. Now you may be ready to go into the oven, but you significant other may not have all the right ingredients yet. They may be looking for love that is patient, kind, etc. Yet, once both of you are ready God will put you in that oven of love. Now it is going to take time to cook. It may be a few months or a few years, but don’t rush the cooking. Time is a precious thing. You don’t want your cake of love to burn. Take this verse for consideration from Song of Solomon 8:4. “I adjure you, O daughters of Jerusalem, that you not stir up or awaken love until it pleases.” So take your time!

Once the timer has gone off God will take the two cakes out and make a beautiful two layered cake. He will add frosting, beautiful decorations, and a topper. This whole cake will be beautiful because God has blessed it.

Now this entire analogy may seem weird or different, but just remember that God has a handle on your love story and He knows when the perfect time is going to be for you. All you have to do is allow Him to make your cake.